UpDate

Don't think I can quit yet; but at least I can get into the storage room. There is still a lot of things that belong to my kids. There are things of mine that I want to get rid of also. Its like this: I don't want it or need it but I wouldn't want to give something away without giving my boys a chance to say "I wouldn't mind having that."
Yesterday even after we did over 200 pounds in the morning I got busy and we took 4 bags up. I put them in my car and my son came along after I talked him to taking my car. We went to refuse place and then to another town's hardware store. I need string for my weed eater and that is where I bought it. We bought the string and headed home. John fixed it all up and then proceeded to do
the area that needed to be done. He raked the area also. I think he was happy to be outside in fresh air and he knew that it was something I needed done.
It was a good couple of days. I had time with my son and We accomplished things.
It sometimes gets to me when I see things that need to be done and I can't do them.
God I love my sons.

200 Pounds

Just a little over 200 pounds of trash were taken up today. It seems like alot but I still see more I think can go. I have said more than once I would like to reduce the things in my house by half. I don't feel like I should be on the program called 'HOARDERS'

Work Day

Well, my son came up and I can't believe the amount of purging we did. We are going to borrow a truck tomorrow and get rid of some more things. It wasn't all work and having time with him is great. I found more pictures. Some I kept and some I did throw away. I am beginning to see an ending to this chore.

Good TV

Tonight I watched some good tv. It was on the Discovery Channel. It was all about animals all over the world and how they adapt. It is called Life. It started last Sunday and it is going to be on next Sunday also. I don't agree on the evolution and dates given but all the strange animals I saw tonight and their ways to do what is necessary for survival. After that program there was one about a man catching a Demon fish that lives in the Congo River.
I enjoyed and learned a few things tonight. TV isn't always worth my sitting and watching but tonight I did.
My two sons that were coming up tomorrow is down to one son. The other son is sick. I hope to get some more things done tomorrow.
Have a great week and God Bless

Bank Robbers NOT

Did you hear about the two bank robbers from Conn. that were arrested by the police at the bank.
Robbers were not coming out of the bank--they were going into the bank.
The idiots called ahead and said they would be there in 10 min. and have the money ready.
Now really give me a break!

Junk Day

It is cold this early morning but as the old saying goes--I am hot to trot. I have to get the garbage out for the garbage men to pick up around 8:30. Then get all the stuff-- bags and bags of stuff they don't take ready for my son coming up from Green Bay sooooo the two of us can load his vehicle up and go to disposal place and GET RID OF IT!! I felt that my name should have been changed to Emelda Marcos when I went thru my shoes. I am getting rid of alot of shoes. When you pack shoes away it is just plain dumb on your part because you won't or can't wear them again.
Throw them away or donate don't pack them away.
Sometimes when you throw away you get a feeling that your life wasn't so bad if you have this much to get rid of.
Monday two more sons come up and take their things. Then I can peruse what I have left and get rid of alot more. One more son to get his things and then blessed relief I can dispose of more things without regard if its something I am storing for some one.
Someone told me yesterday I am doing my kids a favor by going thru this now- I can't accept that.
I am doing it for me. I want my house back and don't want or need all this stuff to feel secure.
I am blessed and I know it. So here I go!

Nice Visit

This afternoon I had a great little visiter. It was my little great grand son Calvin. He is 4 months old. I haven't seen him since he was less than a week old. It was such a nice surprise.
When his mom called and asked if I wanted to see him I was so happy. I didn't have to go upstairs I could stay downstairs and enjoy the baby leaving the work upstairs. I did go up later and found a few more surprises. But I am tired and don't want to go upstairs and deal with things the first part of my day every day.

History & More

I didn't realize all the things I would find when I started to clear out my house. I have so many things that bring me back many years. Baptismal certificate from 1938 for my mother,my sister,my younger brother and myself. Birth announcements- one for my son from 1963 and then one for his daughter in 1985. Pictures of people I haven't seen for decades. I am reliving many things these last few weeks. Not everything I find is good but it is history.
This is some project I started. I didn't have to do all that I am doing and my upstairs does not look better right now for all the time I have spent up there. But the memories keep flooding my days and my mind. My brain is really getting a workout trying to fathom what and how I feel.

Treasures

I have to make correction. Newspaper article was for my grandparents 60th anniversary not 50th.
When I put it in a protective cover I saw my error.
I sent my niece a letter that came from her parents with pictures of her and her siblings that was sent to my parents on March 20,1973. Almost exactly 37 years ago. I received a call tonight that she received them and was surprised. It felt good to share.
I shared some pictures with my sister and she received them today also. There was a picture of her that my dad carried in his wallet. She remembered the suit she had on.
This has changed my attitude a little bit. I have always said "stuff" is just that "stuff" Things don't have value as much as people and memories. I guess I was wrong.

Flying Fast Past

My upstairs has my mind going thru years at a speed I have trouble comprehending. I pick up something and I am looking at a newspaper clipping from 1947 about my grandparents 50th anniversary. I pick up another piece of paper and it is from 1926. It was my parents marriage license. A brief time later I am looking at pictures of their 50th anniversary celebration that I gave. Then I am looking at Christmas pictures from 1966 of my boys first Christmas with out their dad. He died in september of that year. I am looking at pictures from January 1967 when my son had his first birthday. More pictures when my sons were older. High school year book of mine from my junior year 1950.
It is a little hard dealing with all of this coming at me so fast. I have set myself down on the top stair and just sat more than once.
They say you can sometime see your life pass before you before you die. I'm seeing it now without any thing bad happening to me.

Memories

Going thru things that you have stored has an advantage. You can find triggers that bring back memories of the different times in your life. Yesterday I found a stash of recipes of my mom's;
some handwritten and some cut from newspaper. My mom cooked some good meals. She made a good fruit cake and she and my dad canned some great relishes.
I also found the program for my high school graduation almost 60 years ago. Then I started to think about where I have lived. I thought of all the places since birth. Each house brought back a memory. And I can state that they were mostly good. Not all were good but thats expected out of life.
I will be happy to finish this work though because it is work. Some of the boxes are heavy for me. My back is complaining.
Have a great week and if you start feeling bad go to your memory bank and think good thoughts and thank God for them.

Fog

Do you have those days when you feel like your in a fog? They seem to be coming more often for me. But the state has been having those days lately. Friday there was a 31 vehicle pile up with another short distance away 7 cars had a pile up. Today when i turned on the TV I saw schools in many places were starting 2 hours late. I first thought it was a snow day and couldn't figure that out. It was fog. There are places where visibility was down to less than a 1/4 mile. They could not see across the street.
I am trying to deal with my foggy days and I think and rethink what I am doing. Concentration is the way and means for me. Sign of old age I guess.
But what does the state do?